Little Things

"Enjoy the little things in life, 

for one day you'll look back and realize they were the big things"

 - Kurt Vonnegut

It is strange when you sit down to write and a thousand words float to your brain's surface. All of them trying to pop out in every un-eloquent way, just to explain exactly what's going on inside to those on the outside. The soul's chief hope is to feel connection with others; to know that there are those who sympathize, not out of pity or obiligation, but of experience. Those who also want to learn how to fly or to walk the archaic streets in Rome or to hide away on long hikes all alone, just you and the trees. 'There must be someone else who feels this,' is the exclamation of the soul. 

In the past year or so I have found myself disappointed with this hope 

(Well, apart from my husband, who shares an equalled affinity to the things I love).

I've been seeking to find others that have the same/similar vision as I do. 

To join up with them and go on adventures is my longing--iron sharpening iron. 

I thought I found a few hopefuls, but I was mistaken. 

So, this need and lack of connection brings me to this quote posted above. 

What are my little things? 

For the last two years I've been running after

 what I thought was the 'big thing' 

and continued to come up short. 

I have always liked photography though. 

I remember visiting my parents and finding "Draw What You Want To Be When You Grow Up" pages from school and seeing a photographer scribbled there. I've enjoyed shooting with a DSLR since I was fifteen, but it hasn't been until recently that I've really wanted to do photography for a living.  

So, I've made a decision to do photography. For real. 

I'm realizing it was always a big thing. What I thought was nine+ years of a fun hobby

 was actually time well spent to refine my skill. I am able to connect with others through photography in ways that I cannot find anywhere else. I love--with my entire soul--being a bystander to human life. Photography is the most appealing version of anthropology to my soul. 

I'm writing this not only to process this new decision, but in hopes that you will feel freedom to look at the little things in your own life that you enjoy and to give them room to grow into bigger things. 

Sometimes life slams doors in your face. 

I am thankful for it this this week.